As some of you may know, yesterday was the anniversary of our miscarriage of my first pregnancy. It was also the day that Eden turned 2 months old - can it be true?! The day was bittersweet for me.
This time last year I sat on the couch all day every day and would randomly cry. I was also anxious because I had been so excited about celebrating my first Mother's Day, only to lose the baby the Monday before. It was hard - I didn't send cards, gifts, and I'm not even sure I called to say "Happy Mother's Day!" I was sad and I felt like the world was coming to an end.
This year I was sad, but I also had a bundle of joy to take care of and to love on when I got sad. I I started to realize after the miscarriage last year that God just wanted our child(ren) to have a guardian angel, but it was solidified this year. As I watched Eden sleep, eat, play, laugh, and smile I knew that she had her own angel to watch over her. I know God knows what he's doing and
Eden's life, as short has been to this point, has really opened my eyes to realize God's blessings. She was born on the anniversary date of Grampie's funeral last year. Grampie was the first person who was close to me that I've lost. He did not see his death as a bad thing, he told us that he was simply graduating. It is special that she was born a year after we celebrated his "graduation." Then, the day that she turned 1 month old was Easter. This is another day of celebration for us as a Christian family as we celebrate Jesus rising from the tomb after dying on the cross for our sins so that we may live a life eternal in Heaven. And then yesterday, we celebrated Eden's turning 2 months on the anniversary of our miscarriage. With all of these blessings that she has already been a part of, I can thank God for being awesome and blessing our lives in the ways that he has.
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